Thursday, June 26, 2008

The Mechanics Of Passion

Lately I've been feeling a bit aimless.

I'm not sure what the root of my rootlessness is, though some might say it is the fact that the love of my life, my only child Ryan has recently graduated high school. Maybe those individuals would be right in their assessment of my situation though in my heart of hearts, I would beg to differ.

No, I truly don't feel that Ryan's rapid movement towards the world of adult independence has anything to do with my own rootlessness; I think it is something much more intrinsic to me personally. I think my issue is a severe and debilitating lack of passion, or minimally a deficiency in the tools necessary to handle the mechanics required to bring my passions to the surface.

I know what you're thinking: "What the hell is this sistah talking about now?" Let me explain. I know without a doubt that I am a woman of incredibly intense passions. However, currently I don't seem to be able to tap into any of the things towards which I feel passion. For instance, I am passionate about writing but I can't figure out what to write about. Thus, I don't write. This is not good folks and it is but one example of my recently passionless existence!

Now before y'all start getting all worried about your girl, let me assure you that I AM FINE. I am NOT depressed, nor do I feel discouraged. I am simply at one of those junctures in life when a little external inspiration will do a body good ;)

So help your sistah out...How do you manage the mechanics of tapping into your passions (whatever they are) when the flow is not what it once was? How do you find fresh and new ways to motivate yourself to pursue dreams and fantasies you rarely even find yourself dreaming or fantasizing about anymore? All suggestions, tips, and anecdotal information will be greatly appreciated and in the meantime, I will keep on keeping on as Gladys Knight sang because as y'all know, that's what I do!


LadyLee said...

Let me ask you a question, Sharon:

How often are you around people who SUPPORT your passions and/or have the same passions as yourself?

For me, this has been key. The key that unlocks the door to getting you to wher you want to be.

And you know, I ain't gonna blog in your comment section NO MORE, because I will be here ALL DAY.

We will talk soon.

Lovebabz said...

Bring your butt to CT! You should get on a plane and come for a visit!

I know that will rejuvenate you! Think August...go look for a cheap flight!


Anali said...

I'm so sorry to read that you've been having so much pain. I'm saying some prayers. Maybe it's all related and you need to slow down and just be. Enjoy the summer and see what each day brings.