My 100th Post & 100 Things That Make Me Me...

That's right blog family -- The big ONE ZERO ZERO! From November 2005 to now, I have somehow managed to come up with one hundred topics to pontificate upon on this here blog! So in honor of this momentous occasion, I have decided to drop the shroud of secrecy I typically cower behind (lol...yeah right!) and let y'all in on who the real Ms. Just Write Now really is...so here goes...




1. I am the firstborn daughter of the most generous woman ever born. Thus generosity was inherited through my DNA.



2. I am the eighth and favorite grandchild of the best mother/grandmother ever born. Thus motherhood came as naturally as breathing to me.



3. I am a Pisces and as such I don't favor eating seafood....too much like cannibalism I guess.



4. I am 42 years old (soon to be 43 on the 23rd) and proud of it. I encourage my 18 year old 270 pound son to call me Mom in public because I enjoy hearing "You don't look old enough to have a son his age." so much.



5. I grew up in all black neighborhoods in the inner city of St. Louis, Missouri and therefore, never dealt with the stupidity of racism directly until after my self-image, self-worth, and self esteem had ALL been well established.



6. I never attended school with a white person until college; except for a white boy named Derek in high school who didn't count as far as we were concerned because adopted by a black family, he was just one of us.



7. I am a realist about everything but I have a very active, creative mind and fantasy world.



8. The first time I traveled on an airplane, I was 16 years old and going to Italy on a foreign exchange program trip for 3 months.



9. I have been truly in love (romantically) with three men in my 42 years.



10. As a young girl, I planned to get pregnant, never tell the father, and raise my child alone while never marrying.



11. I changed my mind about #10 by the time I reached adulthood, but still ended up getting pregnant and raising my child alone even though I DID tell the father.



12. I have one son.



13. I love my son more than anything/one PERIOD.



14. A year ago I thought I would LOVE to be married "until death do us part"; now, I'm not so sure.



15. In my heart I have been married to every man with whom I have been in love.



16. I have always been a one-man woman.



17. I have ZERO tolerance for liars.



18. I am fiercely protective, scratch that, OVER-protective of those I love.



19. I am extremely principle driven and will sacrifice everything for my principles in most situations.



20. I love my family beyond reason.



21. I historically tend to neglect myself in favor of others.



22. As I get older, I am becoming more selfish and self-centered. This is a good thing.



23. I wish I had better credit. I am aggressively working on this.



24. I hope that at least one of the people who love me would go to the extremes to protect and care for me that I would go to for any of the people that I love.



25. Though gregarious most of the time, I LOVE solitude when I want it.



26. I cry very easily. I always have. I cried in front of my boss a few months ago. DAMN!!



27. Only people I give a damn about can hurt my feelings.



28. I am not afraid of confrontation.



29. I consider myself to be one of the smartest people I know.



30. Contrary to what many believe, I am barely computer literate. This blog is an exercise in cutting and pasting and trial and error.



31. The achievement that defines me as a person is my son.



32. I would lie, steal, cheat, kill, and WHATEVER else that might be necessary to protect and care for my son.



33. I am most afraid of prison and random acts of violence.



34. Though extremely spiritual, organized religion barely factors into my existence.



35. I loved the PO for more than 20 years. Boy was that a HUGE mistake!



36. I was often afraid that the PO and I wouldn't always be a part of each other's lives. THAT was NOT a mistake.



37. Once Ryan (my son) leaves home (for college, his own place, etc.), I want to already have a life of my own underway. I am working at developing my own interests now for that reason.



38. I have recently learned that I have a very small number of friends. However, they are the most devoted, loyal, dependable group of people anyone could ever hope to have in their corner.



39. I am a major movie buff. I especially love to see movies that allow for amazing performances by black performers even if the characters they are portraying are from the seedier side of black life. It is ACTING afterall people and what is IS.



40. I would be very helpful at trivia night if movies or movie-making were a category.



41. I love music but know nothing about it. I can't tell you who sings what nor can I tell you the title of most songs. However, I love music and lyrics and though I was not blessed with the ability to carry a tune I sing at the top of my lungs both in the shower and when I am in the car alone.



42. The easiest decision I ever made was to give my brother a kidney.



43. The hardest decision I ever made was to keep working at my last relationship.



44. The decision I made that has had the greatest impact on my life was to have and raise my son alone when I discovered I was pregnant.



45. The one thing I would do differently if I could go back and change anything would be to be more protective of my credit rating.



46. The people who have had the greatest influence on my life are Ryan, my mother, and my grandmother.



47. The things I am most vain about are: my skin, formerly my nails and hair, and my writing.



48. The things I am most insecure about are: relationships because of the baggage of past ones.



49. I think I would be a different person entirely if: my father had lived until I was an adult.



50. My favorite color is red. It makes me feel positive and upbeat.



51. Sometimes I get depressed and when I do, I tend to hibernate in my cave (bedroom) until I realize to get through it I have to get up and out and focus on something outside of myself. Thankfully, my depressions pass quickly.



52. Most people are uncomfortable when I am anything other than optimistic, cheerful, and upbeat. So I try to avoid exposing them to my darker side.



53. I am a non-practicing pharmacist by training.



54. I plan and execute one helluva party.



55. I have no patience with adults who choose to focus on the negative.



56. I LOVE CHILDREN unconditionally unless they're bad as hell or disrespectful to adults, particularly their own parents.



57. I used to be in favor of capital punishment though I realize it is not always equitably applied. This changed in the last year after reading Dead Man Walking.



58. My free time is spent reading, writing, and traveling as much as I can.



59. I very rarely wear make-up.



60. I like to dress up in formal wear.



61. I think my best physical attributes are my eyes, lips, legs, and breasts.



62. I want to lose 40 pounds still.



63. I lost 35 pounds in 2006 but gained 15 of it back during the post-transplant "no-exercise" period last year.



64. I am starting a new fitness regimen this weekend.



65. I love to kiss and be kissed.



66. I am a huge fan of sex.



67. Dessert is the most important meal of the day in my opinion.



68. I believe that I will be financially wealthy one day though I don't feel that it will be a consequence of my job.



69. I wish I had had more children....at least two more, another son and a daughter.



70. I love surprises and was never the type of child who searched for her Christmas presents in the house or tried to guess what was in a wrapped package.



71. If I ever do have a wedding, it will be a simple, sentimental affair preferably on a beach or in a park with a huge reception/PARTY to follow.



72. I think white people enjoy life more than black people because of a freedom to try anything without the constraints black folks place on themselves and each other with the "black folks don't do ....." commentary that so often meets our decision to try a new adventure.



73. I think black folks should be more willing to discuss in mixed-race company many of the topics we tend only to discuss amongst ourselves. I make a point of doing this which enables me to really get a better understanding of the differences and similarities between these two not so diametrically opposed cultures.



74. The worst thing I ever did and got away with (that I am willing to talk about here) was when I received an "F" for a semester grade in typing for cutting class and my high school principle changed it arbitrarily to a "B" so it would not damage an otherwise stellar transcript.



75. I have a fetish for underwear and pajamas.



76. I spend too much time on my computer.



77. My worst fault is my tendency to procrastinate.



78. My earliest memory is of the day my baby sister was brought home for the first time when I was two years old.



79. The most amazing thing I ever saw was the births of my nephew and cousin.



80. My favorite holiday is Christmas.



81. I have NEVER dated outside my race.


82. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Black Men!!!! YIPPPEEEEEE!


83. I have the best best friend of all the best friends ever created!


84. I have not owned a personal car since 1996. Let's hear it for company vehicles!


85. I often read the same book over as many a four times in the case of books like Roots and Kindred.


86. I have recently discovered a love of poetry.


87. I believe I could be a great songwriter if I put my mind to it.


88. I adore my birthday and celebrate it with more enthusiasm with each successive year.


89. I hardly ever worry about anything.


90. My most superficial goal is to look great in a two piece swim suit by November 2008.


91. My loftiest goal is to be a published author in the next calendar year.


92. I would NEVER end a friendship over a monetary issue.


93. As I have grown older, I have accepted the belief that some people are just evil.


94. I believe that sometimes the lesson is that we don't get to know exactly what the lesson is.


95. I believe that there is someone for everyone.


96. I work hard at being conscientious of the feelings of others.


97. I believe that most people actually receive the image of me that I try to project.


98. I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT MY PARENTS (MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER) ARE PROUD OF ME!


99. I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT I AM A GOOD MOTHER.


100. NEXT TO MY FAMILY, I FEEL MOST BLESSED BY MY ABILITY TO WRITE AND THE GIFT OF STUMBLING UPON BLOGGING AS THESE TWO THINGS HAVE ENHANCED MY LIFE IN WAYS THAT ONLY MY FAMILY DID BEFORE.

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT BLOG FAMILY

ME,

IN A HUNDRED LITTLE NUT SHELLS ;)