Monday, January 09, 2006

Is Smut Taking Over Black Literature?























Yesterday as she and I discussed the feasibility of plot twists in a fictional novel we are working collaboratively on, my 22 year old god-daughter Carmen made me aware of an article she had read in the New York Times titled "Their Eyes Were Reading Smut" by Nick Chiles.On receiving a link from her to the article, I read it for myself and subsequently found myself thinking over the opinions and concerns expressed by Mr. Chiles in the piece. When browsing in book stores, I have had very similar experiences to those that Mr. Chiles describes, and though I have yet to actually publish any of my own writings, I can definitely identify with the impact the apparent decline in black literature is having on the marketing of books and writers in the black literature genre. When one makes a serious and dedicated effort to turn out a finished product that has some redeeming value which provides an opportunity to actually leave the reader with something worthwhile to take away from the time invested in reading, it is easy to understand how the current trend towards "literature" with little to no literary or even social value would be cause for concern.

This is not the first time I have had the opportunity to roll this particular issue over my brain cells as during my attendance in August of last year at the National Book Club Conference, a panel discussion was held titled "The Past, Present, and Future of Black Literature", which addressed this same topic. A panelist, Vickie Stringer, the head of Triple Crown Publishing, a well-known facilitator of the publication of this genre referred to as Urban Lit, street lit, and sometimes ghetto fiction, tried to defend her company's position as to why they aggressively publish this type of product. During this session, I found myself agreeing with both sides of the argument, the one that said that the glut of this genre in the marketplace is detrimental to good literature being produced; as well as the flip side which asserted that there is a niche market available for this genre which deserves to be recognized and serviced. A stroll through the African-American section of any major bookseller reveals that in fact this niche market may be taking priority over the broader market if the number of books of this nature available on book store shelves is a reliable indicator. The discussion became very heated with several of the panel participants including a well-known, best-selling author of popular black fiction seeming to attack Ms. Stringer, and actually bringing her to tears. My empathetic nature kicked in at this point, and I was much more strongly aligned with Ms. Stringer's point of view verses that of the established, successful writers, editors, and publishers on the panel, perhaps simply because they did appear to "gang-up" on Ms. Stringer. Once she had composed herself, Ms. Stringer very eloquently defended her position saying that this type literature was necessary to encourage reading in a subset of the black community who might not otherwise ever read a book. Ms. Stringer gave an impassioned retelling of how she herself had never read anything with which she could identify prior to the publication of Terry McMillan's "Disappearing Acts", and though she was not comparing this book to the "urban lit" her company produces, she did make the point that before "Disappearing Acts", she was not aware of books that were representative of black people like herself. She suggested that "urban lit" serves the same purpose for an entire sub-culture among black America, and might be the first step to getting this group exposed to the world at large that literature makes available.

However, now that several months have gone by, and I have revisited this question without the added pressure of the emotions flowing in that room, I must admit that I too, as a lover of black literature am quite concerned about what I see as the diminishing availability of black literature worthy of investing the cost of a book and the time required to read it. I am a member of two book clubs, one of which is dedicated to reading only black authors. We have been reading black authors exclusively since our inception back in 1997. Up until about two years ago, we never had difficulty finding quality books by black authors upon which the group could agree to read for upcoming discussions. However, in recent times, finding books that did not revolve around typical "sister-girl" themes casting men as dogs, playas, or no-good baby daddies, or plots detailing urban plight or blight that was so exaggerated as to have become ridiculous, has been almost impossible. In these times, stumbling upon a well-written book of fiction such as Ian Smith's "Blackbird Papers", Octavia Butler's "Kindred", or Tayari Jones' "The Untelling" feels like hitting the PowerBall. Lovers of fiction must mine deep for quality writing though for those of us who are lovers of non-fiction, the picture may not be as bleak. In his article, Mr. Chiles writes "As I stood there in Borders, I had two sensations: I was ashamed and mortified to see my books sitting on the same shelves as these titles; and secondly, as someone who makes a living as a writer I felt I had no way to compete with these purveyors of crassness." That a published author of quality literature should feel this level of frustration along with an "inability to compete" when faced with the reality of the marketing push behind "literature" of sub-standard quality is inexcusable.

Defenders of "urban lit" oftentimes make the assumption that its detractors take issue with the material that often becomes the subject matter in these endeavors. In actuality, though the topic of these works often do revolve around potentially controversial subjects including drug use/sells, violence, and sex including prostitution, the issue is more so in the way this material is approached. Many of these books lack the essential elements of good writing such as plot, theme, character development, etc. Even more discouraging, is the fact that many of the publishers of this genre fail to be mindful of the advantages that good editing and copywriting provide. I personally consider this failure to be minimally professional in their approach to what they can deliver to the reading public an insult. "Sugar" by Bernice McFadden is a beautifully executed story of a family of women who for various reasons were prostitutes for generations. While the subject matter is no different from that found in many "urban lit" projects, the level of attention to the more mundane demands of literary creation were closely adhered to resulting in a simple, yet wonderful work of fiction. As consumers who have long complained about the level of disrespect we as a people have been shown in the marketplace, we have an obligation to share in the responsibility of derailing this train before it reaches its final destination: the elimination of quality black literature.


As a "wannabe" writer myself, the question I find myself wondering about, is how do we curtail this decline? Currently swimming forehead deep in the process of writing what I hope will be my first publishable work of fiction, I frequently find myself at a loss for mentorship and guidance. In my opinion, writing is like any craft, it requires intensive training which might be best approached by apprenticeship-like liasons that could assist those just starting out in learning the ropes; while ultimately strengthening the quality of the collective body of work being produced. Vicki Stringer alluded to this possibility while defending her company's position, saying that she did indeed reach out for mentoring, guidance, and assistance to no avail. I'm an optimist by nature, which makes me choose to believe that good writing will always be sought, recognized, and published when found. However, as I look at the state of HipHop and rap music (another truly African-American art form), and how far it has degenerated from the music of my adolescence that I loved so much, I think I would be naive not to have some concern over the future plight of black literature. Since I was a small child, black authors have transported me to places I might not otherwise ever have traveled. I fear that the black literature that has nourished, taught, and sustained my natural curiosity, might indeed be taking the same route as HipHop and rap music into a world that will be just as overwhelmingly negative and potentially destructive.

As a people, we typically galvanize in reaction to something that has already occurred, most often when it is already too late to reach our desired goal. In this instance, the handwriting though on the wall is not necessarily written in permanent marker; therefore let's each do what we can to erase what appears to be the roadmap that has been planned for the literary future of our culture. REBEL! Without regard to what subject matter you prefer to read, force book sellers and publishers to be minimally responsible for providing a product which meets at least the minimal literary standards of good story telling. Then make them respect us enough to utilized accepted literary standards of research, editing, and copywriting. Afterall, its your time and money they are receiving in return, and I think I speak for us all when I say mine is at least worth that much.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

The REAL Gift Is In The Giving!

My brother dancing with my best friend at a birthday party this past summer.

A quick review of my blog so far will illustrate a running theme: My family is important to me. My intention when I created this site, was not to spend so much time writing about my family, however, for some inexplicable reason, things have turned out that way so far. In the very near future, I promise I will focus on other more topical issues, but today's post, like those in the past is also motivated by my family, though topical, and I think, a must read.

In our society, almost anything you might ever need or want is available for a cost, and by hook or crook, most of us will find a way to pay the cost to get those things if we want or need them badly enough. On the other hand, they say "The best things in life are free", which though true makes having the best things in life (such as life itself)sound easier than it is, as this saying doesn't take into account that "free ain't necessarily synonymous with easy to come by". Currently, there are many individuals waiting and hoping to come by organs for transplant which though "free", are rarely available, especially to individuals in the black community who are in need of a transplant to survive or improve their quality of life.

My brother who is 45 years old was diagnosed with chronic kidney failure almost five years ago, resulting in his being placed on dialysis for 4 hours a day 3 times a week a year ago. In the absence of properly functioning kidneys, dialysis is a Godsend as it literally saves lives. This notwithstanding, and at the risk of sounding as if I'm "looking a gift horse in the mouth", if you've ever been close to someone on dialysis, you know that the quality of life that person is able to live is significantly decreased. My brother is a young, attractive, otherwise healthy, single, black man who is unable to do what most of us his age take for granted. Things like four day weekend trips are not an option for him. His diet dictates that he can't even partake of a baked potato or a plate of spaghetti for fear his potassium levels will be off-balance. At a time when having the support of someone who loves you means so much, he and others in this situation hesitate to date or become involved in relationships, not wanting to "burden" someone else with their problems. Without question, his condition in some way or other impacts every part of his life, and dictates what will or won't be.
After working hard to be compliant with his treatment in an attempt to demonstrate his dedication to protecting any kidney he might possibly receive in the future, my brother has been cleared to begin the process of trying to become a kidney recipient. I volunteered to be tested as a potential match for my brother, or in the event that we did not match, I agreed to participate in a "cross-match" scenario where my kidney could be given to another recipient who had a donor with whom they did not match but who matched my brother. When the transplant center called to tell us that our tests for compatability had been scheduled to take place on December first, I took that to be a good omen as December first is our mother's birthday. We both had to go in and give blood to be matched and crossed matched on a wide range of parameters. As the initial vial was filled, the phlebotomist removed it and attached another, then another, then another times "15 anothers" until I finally asked her if she was secretly feeding a family of homeless vampires or what! She smiled and told me to "buck up...my brother had to give up twice as much!" The test was as simple as that.
The results were not due back until around New Years, but for some reason they came back early. Unable to reach my brother, the transplant coordinator contacted me with the news. I immediately left my brother a message to call me as soon as he could. In the interim, I twiddled my thumbs and about lost my mind. Finally, after two and a half hours he called. Acting nonchalant, I casually told him that the transplant center had called and said that if I wanted to, and had nothing better to do with my time, I could give him my "extra kidney". He was momentarily in shock, and then expressed his gratitude with a silence that was louder than any verbal thank you I have ever received. In his silence, I could actually hear his joy, right through the phone without even being able to see his face...BEAUTIFUL! Once he had recovered himself, he whooped and hollered and pretty much acted a stone-cold fool like we had been bred to do since before conception...its in our DNA and we're proud of it.
After a few minutes, I interrupted his glee saying I needed to say something. He immediately got quiet again and asked me what I needed to say. I responded, "I know you realize this means your ass ain't getting nothing for Christmas so don't be looking for no box labeled from me to you under that damned tree next week ;-)".
All jokes aside, I wish I could make anyone reading this post know how I feel about being able to do this for my brother. Though he will still need to take medication to keep from rejecting my kidney, (soon to be his as once you give something away, it is no longer yours!, "Right Mama?"), my brother will mostly have his life back and pretty damn close to what it used to be. My grandmother, once she heard the news was overjoyed at first, then immediate concern for me registered on her face. She turned to me and asked if I was going to do it and if so was I afraid. I answered, "Of course I'm going to do it...to be tested, match, then say no would be just MEAN! Am I scared?, not at all." Call me stupid, but I prayed to be a match, and now that we know that I am, I know everything is going to be alright...this is the way it is supposed to be. Without question, God is Good, All the time!
Everyone who learns of this has complimented me on my generosity, and gone on and on about what I'm doing for my brother. I smile and say thank you, then I try to explain that being able to do something like this for someone I love is a priveledge, an honor. My brother has made it abundantly clear, how much he appreciates what "I'm doing for him", but I want him and the world at large to know that in fact, I'm the one actually receiving the real gift. The excitement, anticipation, joy, happiness, and peace I feel as the donor, is waaaaaayyyyyyyyy bigger than anything I have ever felt as a consequence of something I was receiving.
My mother told me about the theory of "cellular memory" which purports that memory is stored not only in the brain, but in every cell of our bodies. If there is any truth to this hypothesis, my brother may one day know how great I feel to be a part of this. He may also one day know some stuff he ain't got no business knowing as well. If that is true big brother, do me a favor and keep your mouth shut...afterall, we've all got our secrets!
Without question, GIVING IS THE REAL GIFT! Thank you big brother and I love you!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Four Generation Family Sleepover

As long as I can remember, I always wanted a guest bedroom in my home. In previous houses, I have had a home office/guest bedroom which was a bedroom which had been outfitted as an office with a futon stuck in there for the occassional overnight guest. Though this was better than nothing, for anyone who is as compulsive a host as I, it just wasn't the ticket.

In April of this year (2005), I moved into my current home which finally provided me with enough room to have both a home-office, and my heart's desire...a separate, dedicated GUEST BEDROOM!! Bring on the company ;)

Since I moved in, back in April, I have had many guests lay their heads on what I am told is one of the most comfortable beds you could ever want to sleep in. However, no turn at hosting has given me the sense of satisfaction that I received this past weekend when I hosted my spontaneous "FOUR GENERATION FAMILY SLEEPOVER"! On Saturday morning, I called my Grandma up out of the blue and invited her over to help me decorate my second Christmas tree downstairs and without thinking twice she agreed after which I suggested she pack a bag and make a night of it. My mother had been rolling with me the day before on a Christmas shopping excursion and had stayed over the night before, so she decided to stay again as well. My oldest brother and I get together occassionally and have movie nights at my spot so I decided to call him as well seeing as I have plenty of extra space for sleeping with the huge sofas I have in the basement. He agreed as well and thus...the sleepover began.

(l to r: My son, my brother, my Mother, and my Grandmother)

Pictured on Sunday morning sitting around my breakfast table, eating a breakfast I personally cooked (which if you knew me constitutes a miracle in and of itself!) are: (r to l) my grandmother (generation 1), my mother (generation 2), my brother (generation 3 which includes me, the missing person in the empty chair ;), and my 16 year old son (generation 4). As I sat at the table with my family members who I had gathered the night before for this impromptu sleepover, it occurred to me that I was actually sitting there having breakfast with four generations of my family. I was overwhelmed by how blessed that made me, and quickly ran to grab my trusty digital camara.

In the times in which we live, the liklihood that any family will span four generations is not something most would bet on, and at that moment, I realized that four generations were sitting at my table, and in actuality, I am part of a five generation family that is NOT the result of babies being born to babies barely old enough to have babies (No 13 year old mothers here!).

(The Five Generation branch of my family tree: Grandma, Hazel (my cousin), Odessa (Hazel's mother-my aunt), Anita (Hazel's daughter-my 2nd cousin), Storm (Anita's infant daughter-my 3rd cousin)...)

I am blessed to be a part of a family that doesn't only get together for special events, or sad events, or because we're obligated to, but just because sometimes we just want to! I am blessed to be part of a family that doesn't just "love each other", but one that actually "likes each other"!

Since I was a little girl, I can recall my extremely large extended family (at last count my grandma had 12 children who had given her 69 grandchildren who had produced 23 great-grandchildren one of whom had produced the single great-great grandchild...yep!, fertile as the Napa Valley ;) getting together at the drop of a dime and any reason or no reason was reason enough!

(Okay, okay, I'm third from left standing in grey dress with lollipop stick hanging out my mouth)

This picture was taken at my grandmother's when I was about seven or so, and though money was never something that was overly abundant in my family, its absence did little to curtail the joy we found in us...as they say, "Membership has its priveledges"!

So with Christmas fast approaching, I'm looking forward to hosting the annual family shindig at my digs. There will be more folks than I can begin to anticipate and yet, I invite more everyday. There will be plenty of good food and drink...because you know how we do. ;) But most of all, whether or not I will like my present is a moot question, because my present will be the sheer ecstacy that comes each and everytime I get to be swallowed up in the crazy, fun-loving energy that comes with membership in my big, loud, some say ghetto-fabulous, five-generation family.

THANK YOU GOD FOR HUGE BLESSINGS!!!

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Happy Birthday Baby Bro!

Day before Yesterday, as in December 6, I remembered that tomorrow (December 7) would be my baby brother's birthday...I even shared the information with my son Ryan and agreed to remind him to call my brother Chris to wish him a Happy !

Today, as in December 8, I remembered that yesterday (December 7) I forgot it was my baby brother's birthday...talk about TRIFLING!

Twenty-nine years ago when I was about 12 years old, my mother hid her pregnancy from me, my little sister, and my two older brothers for seven months for fear we would be upset about it. To the contrary, when we were finally told, we were estatic. I even got her to agree to let me name the new baby and I chose Christopher which was the name of the first boy I ever loved back in third grade ;)


The Master of Disaster as I used to call him was born on the coldest, snowiest night imaginable, and I can still remember my uncle trying to unfreeze his car door locks at 2am trying to get my mother to the hospital to finally have this baby whose existence in my mother's womb had only been revealed to me two and a half months before... In the real morning, I was sent to school by my Grandmother as usual, the sixth grade, as if nothing out of the ordinary was happening in my life. It was brutal, the not knowing what was happening...I never would have been able to wait nine whole months. I returned home that afternoon to learn I had a new baby brother. A more loved baby never entered the world, than my baby brother!














He was everything to everyone in my family and especially to me. I can recall as my friends one by one began to have babies as teenagers, my mother jokingly saying she had Chris so I would know what it meant to take care of a baby and would not fall into the trap of teenage pregnancy. Whatever her reasoning, without question, I fell in love with my baby brother and in a world where people who disappoint you appear to be the rule more so than the exception, I would have to say, my brother is the exception that proves the rule! He is always there, when you need him for whatever you need him. In a world where so many folks take, take, TAKE, he is a GIVER, plain and simple.

As babies tend to do, he too grew up. I left for college when he was five, but when I came home, it was less than two years before we had convinced our mother to let Chris live with me since I handled everything relative to him for the most part anyway and he spent all weekends, and summer vacation at my place already. This essentially resulted in Chris having two mothers, and I for one don't know how he coped, but he did. As much as I took care of him, he took care of me...maybe even more. From protecting me from any noise, light, or other painful intrusions during my migraines, to helping to raise my son, Chris was always there...being Chris. His graduation from high school was one of the proudest moments of my life and had a more profound effect on me than my own; afterall, my oldest child was graduating!!













Now, he is all grown up and in love with the girl of his dreams, my new baby sister Katrina. He has a new woman to take care of him, but just as my first kiddie crush for whom he was named did, Chris stole a large chunk of my heart the day he came home from the hospital, and no matter who I love, or who loves me, my baby brother will always have his piece of my heart to keep!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BRO...I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER!


Tuesday, December 06, 2005

No Scrooge Here!

Two weeks ago it bit...I arrived at my best friend's house in Nebraska to celebrate Thanksgiving with her and her family, and when I arrived the exterior of her house had been decorated in full Christmas glory. With every ounce of my being, I fought the urge to rush into the season, preferring to let it gently wash over me instead, but every house in her neighborhood was in full Christmas regalia, or on its way.



(Angie's house all decked out for Christmas before Thanksgiving!)
Even still, I resisted the urge. Then, on black Friday when everyone else was up early spending money, my best pal recruited me to assist with set-up for a wreath auction to be held locally in the near future. Just what I needed, MORE decorations to drag Christmas and all that goes with it to the forefront of my brain. Withstanding this challenge without too much trouble, my buddy then decided to pull out the stops and convinced me to help her with decorating the inside of her house...


It was almost more than I could take...but still I returned home intent on resisting the urge to bring Christmas into my home early.

Unfortunately for my little great-niece, the urge to decorate and make things (even people) festive became too much to resist, and she ended up being my target...check out the coat and hat!!

As they say, the first step to recovery is to acknowledge you have a problem! I AM A CHRISTMAS FANATIC!!!! I love everything about the season and can't wait for any signs of it to make their appearance. When others are complaining on Halloween about the Christmas decorations going up in the malls already, I am getting lipstick on my earlobes my grin of anticipation is so huge. I am without a doubt in my element and at my best for the month of December each and every year!

So, take a little photo journey into my particular brand of madness; and if you happen to be in town Sunday, December 25, 2005, stop in and join the party...afterall, I'm expecting at least 50 folks, what's a few more!!!

Christmas in my living room......

A miracle on my mantle...




Christmas cooking in the kitchen...

Presents to poinsettias, to trumpet playing Santa Clauses and Snow Men who sing "I'm a SNOW MAN! A Rock and Roll Man!" on top of my kitchen cabinetry, I am completely, totally, unabashedly enamored of everything Christmas!!! So for those of you for whom all the "hoopla" over this most festive of all seasons is to quote a classic, "ba humbug!", my condolences...because without a doubt, with the exception of the arrival of a new baby, I can think of absolutely nothing more exciting.

No, without a doubt, There's No Scrooge Here!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Thursday, December 01, 2005

NaNoWriMo Officially Over In My Neck of the Woods!



That's right literature fans, it is official the results are in...National Novel Writing Month has officially ended in my time zone and I am exhausted, but proud to say that I, on my very first attempt have managed to exceed the 50000 word expectation (slightly), and just timely enough to qualify as a NaNoWriMo 2005 Winner!!!!!

I have to say that this has been a great experience for a literary perfectionist like me. I have written in some shape or fashion for as long as I can remember, but have never actually been able to "complete" a project because I have chronic "edit-itis". Edit-itis is a condition typically contracted by those who would write which causes them to be incapable of getting to the end of a piece of work because they are constantly re-reading and subsequently editing the body of work they have actually produced. A vicious cycle emerges, resulting in a complete and total failure to produce even one finished product.

When I began my NaNo novel two weeks after the start pistol had been fired, I was still suffering from this terrible condition. As the days passed and my word count did not grow quickly enough to meet the average per day needed to sucessfully complete my task, I realized that something had to give or I would FAIL! Obsessed with the desire to say I had done it, I forced myself to focus only on being as wordy as I could possibly be while at the same time trying to tell the story I had originally set out to tell. Slowly my daily counts started to climb until I completed a marathon writing session over the last two days which resulted in the addition of almost 20000 words, putting me over the top and into the Winner's Circle.

There are lessons in all things...what were my take-aways from this exercise?

  • Stay the course...it will pay off--->I have actually written my first book! Right now it's short and it needs work no doubt, but it EXISTS!
  • Perfection can be created only if there is imperfection first;in other words, to perfect something, you gotta have something to perfect--->I have a novel, bring on the revisions!
  • NaNoWriMo works and creates writers if you work at it, writers Rock, and if the transitive property applies (if a=b and b=c, then a=c)--->I worked my ass off, I became a writer, and therefore, I ROCK!

Friday, November 25, 2005

And The Gifts Start Rolling In!

Here's my best description of the sensation...

I wake up this morning, the day after Thanksgiving, and though I don't really need anything in particular to feel thankful for because I'm blessed to be a natural optimistic who is acutely aware of how favored she is, I go into my AOL email box and learn that I can be GRATEFUL I made a mistake! Now those among you who read this and think, "grateful she made a mistake...what the...", are the very ones who should keep on reading...as a matter of fact, y'all should read faster! Those of you on the other hand who intuitively smiled at the thought that I could be grateful I made a mistake already know the magnitude of this particular type of gratitude.

Upon entering my email box, I found that I had received a message from a person with whom I have not been in contact for awhile, though I very much would have liked to have been. It turns out, that this very blog was the impetus behind this individual reestablishing contact with me...(talk about a fast turn around on a time investment, and returns I never imagined receiving ;). Anyway, while trying to include my Uncle Arthur and his family on a distribution list I created from my online address book when sending a message to friends and family to introduce this very blog, I inadvertently added this "Art's" email address. The long and short of it is this resulted in the reestablishment of communication between me and someone I very much would like to discover more about and I am thankful for the "Divine Intervention" that allowed the meticulous, detail-oriented me to make such a wonderful mistake!

MISTAKES I believe are the key to my ability to remain positive and optimistic and can be for anyone. As I replay my life and analyze the final result of each of my own biggest faux pas, I have found that they typically have landed me in a great destination that I either had not or would not otherwise have had the foresight to plan to go, or if I had, did not have idea one about how to go about getting there. Examples you ask, wanna hear 'em, here they go:

  • 1983, best pal Jeff (you know who you are) convinces me to go to college with him (we'll get each other through med school!) at Creighton in Omaha, NE then proceeds to go to school himself at Clark in Atlanta, GA -- 1988, I've discovered med school would have been a mistake and subsequently am graduated from one of the best Pharmacy schools in the country -- for this mistake I'm thankful every day!
  • 1989, I'm pregnant (need I say more...) -- 2005, I've had the baby alone, a son, who is now sixteen, loving, brilliant, well adjusted, handsome, popular, funny,...and the hands down winner for the title of "THE SINGLE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME!" -- for this "mistake" I'm thankful every single second of every single day!
  • 1998, I quit my job prematurely with only a verbal (not signed) offer from my next employer (okay, okay...beyond stupid), hoping to have a couple weeks between jobs to spend with my son (I should at least get some cool points for this) --1999, following a hiring freeze which prevented me from starting for three months (2.5 months longer than I had planned for), I am hired and in the interim, I discovered how resourceful and capable I can be! 2005, end result, this position was definitely worth the wait ultimately and more than prepared me for my dream job which is the one I have now...(I mean if you have to have a job at all, and unfortunately, I do) -- but at least its one I like, am good at, and can be thankful for every day!

The long and short of it is, nobody wants to make mistakes, but whether we want to or not, we all do. The question becomes, what do you do then/next? You can kick yourself, but why do that, you're already down. You can spend the rest of your life lamenting your misfortune, but that's not necessary either as there are plenty of people who will boldly remind you of your "oops!" more often than you'll ever need them to. You can play it safe from here on out and never risk anything ever again, but as they say, "You can't win if you don't play"! Or you can embrace your "failures" for what they are...OPPORTUNITIES! Opportunities to learn something, gain something, or just try something again or something new. But the bottom line is mistakes are something! And I'll bet if you take a trip down mistake memory lane as I have, you'll find that that something is almost always a gift in the end. Holla back if you feel me and share some of your own "opportunities". Thanks Art! ... both of you.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Read Sista Read Book Club Hobnobs With the Authors We Love To Read

If the opportunity to learn from those who are already sucessful published authors appeals to you, find your way as soon as you can to the National Book Club Conference website and register for next year's event. Almost without exception, the writers in attendance very graciously made themselves available to discuss writing, pose for pictures, or just hang out. Some of the more noticeably approachable included from left to right in the collage below (skipping obvious duplications): Lolita Files (Child of God...you've gotta read it!), Francis Ray (discover that black folks are romantic too!), Walter Mosley (without question the creme' de la creme' of the lot!), Bebe Moore-Campbell (grace personified, and What You Owe Me, I need not say more!), Tayari Jones (I can't begin to describe the beauty of her spirit, nor the quality of her work!), Virginia DeBerry & Donna Grant (the dynamic duo package deal who are the dopplegangers of my best friend Angie and me!), Dr. Ian Smith (whose Blackbird Papers took the world and our club by storm), Crystal McCrary & Tonya Lewis Lee (who I have had the pleasure to meet twice and found to be genuine, informative, and so very uplifting!), Dr. Obery Hendricks (who is without question the most sensitive brother I've met in a long time...and let's face it, any brotha who raises his daughter alone is alright with me!). Others in attendance included J. California Cooper, the high priestess, Bertice Berry, my new idol, Terrie Williams, for whom the English language has not yet created a word positive enough to be applied, as well as a myriad of others. Whatever you do, if you love writers or just like being around good people, don't miss this event! Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Link to my NaNoWriMo Profile and Novel Excerpt

Hi and welcome to my blog. I am so happy to know someone, anyone is possibly reading this! Somewhere deep inside me there are so many things screaming to get out. A lawyer, an actress, a poet, and most aggressively, a writer. I have designated 2005 and 2006 as the years I am going to work to "help the creative process along", instead of hindering it as I have been so very adept at doing in the past. So to that end, I have created this blog and this is my very first post.

Additionally, I have looked for any opportunities which encourage, cajole, or just plain force me to do more writing including opportunities focused on creative fiction as well as creative non-fiction which is a new-found interest. In the pursuit of increasing my creative writing output, I joined writers all over the world who are participating in National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo), a project whose sole purpose is to drive writers to produce quantity (50000 words to be exact during the month of November), while relegating the idea of quality to a later point in time referred to by Brandon Massey in his Tailspinner blog (www.brandonmassey.blogspot.com) as National Novel Revision Year (NaNoRevYr). I only discovered NaNoWriMo while catching up on the blog of one of my new favorite authors a sharp sista by the name of Tayari Jones (www.tayarijones.com) who I recently had the pleasure of meeting at the National Book Club Conference (NBCC) (www.nationalbookclubconference.com) back in August. She is the author of two fabulous pieces of literature that I have had the pleasure of reading, Leaving Atlanta and The Untelling. Check out her website especially if you are an aspiring writer (note I said writer not author) yourself as she posts many useful tidbits on her blog. Anyway, Tayari's blog introduced me to NaNoWriMo, which I subsequently joined last Monday about halfway through the allotted timeframe, and thus I am sending this link (www.nanowrimo.org/userinfo.php?uid=122943) to my profile on their website where you can read a short excerpt of my NaNo novel.

Well, I guess I have rambled enough for my first official post. Please check out my NaNo novel if you have the time and hit me back here with your comments. I'm very interested in your feedback, and would really appreciate hearing from you whether you like what you read or not. Also feel free to share about things that may be on your mind as well, especially as it pertains to writing. While you're surfing the net, check out the other links I have included as well, as these sites have much to offer.

Until we meet again which once you get to know me better you'll find could be anytime day or night, take a lesson from me that was a long time in coming and get out of your own way and let the writer, dancer, singer, or whatever in you get out and at least get some air!


Read Sista read Book Club of Omaha, NE attending the National Book Club Conference (NBCC) held at the Buckhead Intercontinental Hotel in Atlanta, GA August 5-7, 2005. Standing on far write is "wannabe writer" Sharon. Posted by Picasa